1.12.14

原来想要的简单爱 是最难得到的

i never knew i would need this space to ever again...but recent event has triggered so many emotion that i needed a space to throw them in...

Posted by dotsux at 12/01/2014 06:54:00 pm

12.5.10

over the years..

kinda lost myself for the past few days...dunno whether is it coz my da yi ma has been missing for months..or was it jus me..

gt damn emo tat day..cried for nothing..seriously nothing..when my hse mates ask me wat was it..i couldnt ans..i jus felt like crying..tears jus keep rolling down my eyes..did i menton i lost my temper tat 2 days..? tat day i didnt had a gd slp..slpt at 5..hse mates woke up at 10..than kept talking tat i woke up..in da evening..i tried to slp..than they keep asking me go gym which i refuse to..after which when they got back..they on da tv n was chatting n laughing quite loudly..i keep telling myself hw i can tell them tat i was disturbed..? so i jus went to da kitchen n tried my best to sound easy..but i tink it didnt work..coz they kinda silence down..haiz..nvm..another incident..i also dunno wat got into me..i cooked scramble egg..than i tot i was only cooking for me n boss...but end up they all tot was share except me..so it kinda make me look selfish..so i was kinda work up tat i got up from da chair abruptly n say i go cook again..n i tink they were kinda taken aback by it..

wat is wrong w me..? tired..?? emotional stress..?? oh perhaps i jus couldnt get use to being my rm mate getting closer w my other hse mate tat it seems tat im losing my fren..??

another 1..oh..i tink i say only 2..but here's another small incident..during da first bball match again in ni..i was kinda pull by opponent to make it like i charge her n was blown foul..i even gt scratch by her for tis..i got so mad tat i was scolding all da bad ass hokkian words...=X

i jus need to know tis ppl..over da yrs..did i change for da better..?? worst..?? or same..?? being temper wise..character wise...i try to be better..but i always seems to be da petty one..need to change...!!! haiz..shall try to stop holding grudges for a start..can i do it..??

Posted by dotsux at 5/12/2010 07:03:00 pm

29.3.10

new hse new sem new start...?

its been 5 wks since back to aussie aka boring land..weird weather 3days sch new hse new hse mates new routine..so many changes..

Posted by dotsux at 3/29/2010 08:57:00 am

14.3.10

思念是一种病 很高兴你们都全愈了

思念是一种病 很高兴你们都全愈了。。。

很高兴能成为你们生命中的过客。 不论是重要的还是不重要的，停留时间长的还是短的，有贡献的还是是祸害的。最重要的是你们都全愈了，也到达了幸福的终点。这才是最重要的。

我很替你们开心，也替你们高兴。珍惜身边的一切。 幸福是你们辛苦挣取到的，不要轻易的放手。

还没到达终点的别灰心，我一直都会在这里陪伴你们到最后。

幸福 我们要的幸福 在不远处。。。。。。

Posted by dotsux at 3/14/2010 01:46:00 pm

2.3.10

back in da scolarly land of aussie..

hey peps..yes..im back yet again..hopefully for da last time..wrong..it will b da last time..!!

first..i would like to thanks all who sent me:
ALL my family members..!!! dad mum da jie da jie fu er jie n nt forgetting my cute little niece chevuan..=D
attitudez (less tat dumb dumb)..clar kai pei ting pc..=))
heartbond (those who r still in sg)..ck wj teck chun hui mx raymond eve smurf grace..=))
dare..jh helyn..=))

n of coz those who cant make it n sent me sms..jason cg yen shun yin ren..(seriously hope i didnt miss out anybody..coz i dun have my tat phone w da sms-es w me..=P)

flight was ok..first time tat i slpt da most..perhaps its due to da turbulence tat was occurring during most of da flight time..brekky was nt even served due to safety reason...tmd..they could still give us vouchers volunteering instead of asking us to go ask da gnd crew for it can...haiz..was super hungry when i got out of custom..lucky new hse mate came to pick us up..

went to da new hse..nice..nt bad..but da rm me n xh sharing is a...bit...small...ahz....pls wait till i get internet at home before i post up da pics..lazy to bring da photos to sch n upload ahz..(oh..did i mention it has been raining non stop since i came here..?? yeah..its raining..drizzling most of da times but slightly heavy at times n windy all da time...)

went to grab brekky at indro than bought groceries..fridge n kitchen cupboard is super empty..have to fill them up rite..?? wahaha..=D first brekky back here...hungry jacks's toasted wrap..

went home n almost immediatly went to move our stuff from our fren's place back to our hse..n when i had so many stuff tat da new rm can hardly fit..?? oh ya..my old rm was much bigger..n cheaper..oh well..tats da price u gotta pay for staying near sch..lucky its on da top flr but unlucky tat we had to move so many stuff up can..!?? hands ached da next day lor..=(

went to sch to settle some admin stuff on mon..check out da sch com..omg..all changed to mac can..w super big monitors..n super sleek keyboard..shall upload when i get internet at home..=D nw we noe where all our sch fees gone to...hmz...

k k..abt time to go look for lecture to discuss abt da thesis title..hope i get him as my supervisor..! *cross fingers* gym later too...target to lose all da weight gain since commissioned..!!!!! ciaoz..

Posted by dotsux at 3/02/2010 11:08:00 am

22.1.10

if only..

there is alot of ifs in da whole.."if only i have done this..if only i had agree to it..if only i had rejected.."

been telling myself to..let it go..let them be..but end up..i start to trigger my own panic button..today..if only i had agreed to it..i would nt end up cancaling it..make 3 ppl unhappy..2 ppl pissed..1 ppl nan zhou ren..

dun feel like doing anything even when im going to bkk tmr..

da kite is flying higher..da line is pulling tighter..it feels like it will snap anytime..it wans to fly away..freedom is wat it yearns for..

i jus want to b happy...............life is simple...dun complicate it..

Posted by dotsux at 1/22/2010 11:31:00 am

21.9.09

way.....outdated post...

hey hey..im nt dead yet..no worries peps..jus tat ive been too lazy to update my blog..wanted to do 1 after i come back from hob-mel trip..but too many tings to do on hand coz sch started shortly after tat..oh well..heres a brief update of wat had happen since da last post..

after exams..i mean literally rite after my ppr..attitudez gals came..!! haha..xh help me fetch them from airport n send them to sch to meet me..!! omg omg omg..haha..was super excited tat i rem walking darn fast to da carpark to meet them lar..haha...super duper happy to see them lar..bu kuei shi wo de hao jie mei..came to aussie to visit me lor..=D tks gals..it was really fun..they slpt over at my hse..bit squeezy but it was all fun no complains..somemore its winter..more cosy ehz..it was really a short 5days lar..i tink we had too much fun alr..tat 5days past so fast..we went lone pine..movie world..surfers..city..west end..n tats pretty much we can squeeze in..wanted to go watch movie drink coffee..but no time no time..time flies so fast tat its time for them to go back sg alr..haiz..than gt the kai incident..she didnt get onto the flight same as da gals..haiz..long story..shall nt get onto it again..so gotta spend a few more hrs w her..lucky..but i tink i gt damn emo after they left..tat i called my sis complaining tat y didnt i take up mum's offer to go back sg..haiz..oh well..

a few more nuah days at home and i went for a trip to hob (orginally)..n ended up going to melbourne as well..with my 6days of clothes..haha..which i survived w for 14days..=D nice..~~ pics can be seen in my fb tat is..limited quota ah..ps..cannot upload so many stuff..it was really a darn fun trip..ting da 2nd most fun i had since ive been to aussie..1st was for sure when attitudez gals came..went on the trip w mx n her hse mates..it was da coldest i ever been in aussie..be in da cold temp in hob or da chilly winds in mel..omg..nearly dieded can..haha..but it was fun..went to see snow..!! for da first time..i even made snow man during the skiing trip@ mel..=D had lots of booze too..haha..=p cheap in aussie ma..n its nice..pics again..can be seen in fb..n pics tell a thousand words..

tis sem is darn siong lar..i nv stayed in sch tat late before..imagine going home from sch at 1am..darn scary lar..no cars on da road..n darn quiet somemore..>_< projs assignments quizes lab reports..they r nv ending..every wk sure gt at least 2 of these due..cant breath alr lor..super lack of slp......gpa is gonna really suffer tis sem..haiz..

oh..my latest addiction..haha.. KO 3an guo..!! super duper nice to watch..!! funny interesting..dunno wat else to say..haha..n its nt even finish yet...kai only manage to pass me ep1-16 when she was here lar..coz da rest nt out yet..nw out till ep30 n i had to buy quota from sch to watch lor..!! imagine hw super addictive it is..dong cheng wei xiu is so 帅！！！his guitar skills are superb lar..n da songs in da show is darn catchy n nice too..guo ai is from x family..resang by patsy..but both version r gd..than gt lei le..n not forgetting xiu sing 以战止战..while watching at home cant laugh so loud lar..than i almost gt inner injuries..than when i watch in sch my fren tot i siao siao..y keep smiling at myself..haha..=P who can be such a kind soul to send me ep 17 onwards..?? i nid my motivation...O_O

oh ya..my laptop power adaptor up car lor..angry..tat day after finish rushing da assignment in sch at near to 1am..while keeping my lappy..i start to hear beeping sound from the power box lar..than it stops charging my lappy..!! immediatly went to ebay to get a new one lor..n it jus came today...haiz..been sharing w xh..lucky can use her adaptor..but batt cycle...maybe its a hint to...~~~?? =X no money...!! stupid exchange rate kept going up....~~~~

pardon me..but tis post is a super concentrated post..haha..so lots of details nt inside..whoever chat w me regularly shld noe more than these ah..haha..feel free to help me add on ehz..

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